I took this for my photography class. This is one of my self portraits. Right after this photo was taken my photography teacher asked me if I had ever had suicidal thoughts. I told her yes. She was surprised. I told her that I was being bullied at school by multiple people and that I have thought about killing myself more than once. She asked me if I had ever self harmed and I said yes. Again, she was shocked at my response. I was always the happy girl that was laughing, smiling, and putting everyone before herself. This photo shows a lot about me because it tells a story about how I feel about myself nowadays. I’m hiding myself away from a lot of people that I used to spill my heart out to. I don’t talk as much as I used to, my real smile is turning into that fake one again, and I act like everything in my life is going perfectly fine. But it’s not, I’m learning that there’s really no one you can trust but yourself. I’m learning that sometimes it’s okay not to be okay.